I'm always inherently paranoid that any minute or any second I am going to get banned. I don't really think I push the envelope with the things I post or say but I feel as though a lot of people have me on their ignore lists and it kind of makes me sad. I'm not a douche. I'm a nice guy. Sometimes I just can't help it. I sometimes feel like I don't need to start a thread but I HAVE TO. I just feel like people will reply to it and my popularity will go up ... I kind of always wanted to grow up to be like Jamerio, but now I just want to be me. Plus, I suck at arguing and having those long blocks of text arguments with the likes of vedic. I seriously hope I figure out what my role in ESR-land is and I seriously hope someone can actually kind of like me ... even a little.

Is that too much to ask for?