so,since thursday I'm back in germany,immediately felt home,and ready to have a nice christmas. finally i can get all the records i've mist (mainly mogwai and bohren&der club of gore stuff) and just watch everything rot slowly. started wow again,they call me the king of living essences :[
yeah,everything works okay (11 - mogwai - come on die young - christmas steps.mp3)but i dont like it. i hate it when a woman keeps bugging me about doing a video evening,but I jusot want to forget about her. i hate my inability to show my deep emotions to my family,i nearly never cry (i didnt when i came back and my father was waiting at the airport exit). i hate the fact that i always go for the wrong girls. "take me somewhere nice"
tomorrow will be better,until i wake up.waiting for my psycholgy study to begin (where,i dont know),so i'll probably do some work,prepare myself mentally,or maybe even change the subject i want to study. at this very moment i just dont know,and i will fall into my bed now and seek tranquility in ny bed, i love it,no tv on,just me,my headphones and total darkness.touching your doppelganger in the mirror,feels like waking up to find yourself trapped. no enter,no commercials,just fog and cold weather as far as i can see.meeting a very special woman tomorrow,fear of approaching her. should i move this to somewhere else ? yawgmoths will dominant,but i dont care because i am not one of them.quake 4 i dont know,new warcraft 3 patch.i always help people concering their problems,nice woman in the tv,wait i wanted to turn it off.at least i can do that now.single remains this is boring. end transmission,sgnl05.naked lunch(movie)finished soon.gasping for air,instantly dying,light pops out of his body."dude you should begin as a writer".not really,no one would understand,no one would read,wouldnt anyone?what about someone?thisisbullshit.finishedmogwaidiscography,gotofriendsandtalk.myrealfriends?
they would've called me then,or at least written some more emails,or just be really there.culling the weak