addict3d_

i was told to remember,
all i saw was december,
99 was the year i surrendered

it was love at first site
it was undying love i could not fight
it grabbed hold of my dick
made me the bitch i do not wish to admit
but the truth was there
i did not choose but i had no choice

i could just not control the urge
i denied friends and family for
iNTOLARABLE rEDEMPTION cONTROL
interlinking a never ending threesome
between the 2 of them, and the bitch
that i was for 4 years and it stole
much more than just a soul

it lowered my grades,
it lowered me into a hole
it lowered my train of thought

i couldn't ask for much more

i didn't need to smoke to get high
i just played all day and night

1,2,3,4,5, 1 more hr and its about that time
i get up to bloodshot eyes, i get to school
wtf son you look high, i was told this a million times

i sit for hrs, i finally get through
i hate the rhyming scheming sound but its oh so true
cross out reading cross out studying and homework
but i still managed to pass my classes
as long as i had my fix i was happy
isn't that all that trully matters?

till the day you open your eyes,
you're like a newborn in a new life
you see what a waste it has done to your time
i can't go back but i go forward
but now that i realize it's almost over

i see how bad u've been to me
i really don't care if you're changing for the need
to catch more users as ur dreaded feat
but i can tell you now, you don't got me.


CHANGE IS GOOD
self-discovery, use it.